the fall

the fall

mani season approaching

the hell with all the rumors you hear

My skin I'll cover with coats I wear

A monster about to come alive again

Watch out for the mania, watch out for the sin

Cloud ninez my zone

And finally, I won't be alone

New sight

It's bright 

Chasing Failure

have no idea how she reacts

have i created fiction or have i created fact  

the mystery that lies with her reception

how i wish i could plant a thought, one might call inception

to wonder

to say yes

to say no

to simply say

thank you

Inside

Where do you come from darkness of mine

why can’t I fill the caskets of wine

that lead to good fortune when the times get so brown

and my body wants to be in the earth six feet down

Manic is my other state I love to embrace

I can think, I can write, its a wonderful place

The world becomes a quilt, all segments together stiched

the darkness is vanquished, the sorrow I’ve ditched

The beauty, the darkness, a life that has twisted

How do I fight in this war I'm enlisted

The fight on the inside rages on 

while in the fight on the outside, i remain a measly pawn

How do I work in a world and bring in some light

when I feel like most times I’ve completely lost my fight

What. the hell is bipolar disorder.

its hell and its heaven
its weeping and its dancing
its hernias and orgasms
its lucifer and its jesus

its life?